It is with a bit of sadness that I write this post today, and I was not sure how exactly to go about it… but this is where I am at today.
If you’ve been following me for a while, you will know that I have been an entrepreneur for the last 8.5 years as much as I am a wandering soul.
I have shared a few times that I think a lot of people romanticise about how cool it is to be an entrepreneur and think it’s the most straightforward job on the planet to run your own company.
Let me be honest here; it is not. It’s a daily challenge to save your company’s life, make sure you look after your employees, clients and your own skin. Every single day. You put almost the exact same blood & tears into your own business as you do in raising a child. However, I would not know anything about raising a child or being married because for the past 8.5 years, I have put everything aside and poured my heart into my business.
I don’t feel comfortable disclosing on here at large precisely what happened, but I will say that the last year something happened that completely changed who I was, that made me relook where this was all going. I got to a point where I daily asked myself “is this truly it?”.
I was questioning my purpose, my own values but mostly what gives me internal joy and what steals that too. All I know is that I reached a point where I had to admit to myself, that owning a corporation and having all that stress, is not allowing me to live my best life, personally and professionally.
I knew deep down changes needed to be made, it was not that easy, because when you are almost 40 and in a comfort zone and feeling secure, making a change is the scariest thing alive.
The confirmation to change things up came to me during a therapy session in the U.K. 2 months ago. That decision was to close my business, 4Elements Media, and I decided to do it at the end of August 2019.
This decision was not made light-heartedly, trust me, I cried myself to sleep many nights, especially since 4Elements Media has been my driving force and passion for almost 9 years.
Along the way, I have worked with amazing clients who all have been an integral part of 4EM’s success. I will never have enough gratitude to express how grateful I am for every person that played a role in the almost 9 years of 4Elements Media’s existence.
To my staff, I know that I would never be where I am if it was not for your hard work and dedication to our clients, your loyalty to 4EM and me. My heart is sore saying goodbye to you.
I had the opportunity to reflect on so many of the projects I have worked on running 4Elements Media the last month. I am fully aware that it is only by grace that I get to do what I love and that by taking this risk, I might lose a lot, but I also know now I can truly focus on my purpose.
As one door closes, another will open where I will focus on working as a freelance consultant in PR and events, while I actively pursue my passion for traveling and working with women throughout the world by enriching those in less fortunate countries with the skills I’ve developed the last two decades. (watch this space)
Thanks for all your support – it’s definitely been a wild few years, but I’m looking forward to what the next chapter holds. 🙏🏻❤️